Our Crocs.

Went to Kinta City, Ipoh last time.
With MAK and GEM (my younger brother).
We ended up bought these.
MAK's treat!!!

My Fuchsia Mary Jane.
A bit regret about the size.
Perhaps next time I should buy W9 instead of W8.
Leave a lil roomy in the shoes.

Hello Kitty Jibbitz.
The left one is holding ice cream,
while the right one is holding flowers.
Soooo cute!!

3D Mermaid Jibbitz.
Hehe. She is cute right?
This is MAK's.
I would prefer the pink color. MAK too.
But size W10 was out of stock.
No choice, MAK can't wear W9. A bit tight.
But its okay which color we bought, as long as it is comfortable.

p.s. I want Malindi Leopard. Last time, no stock at the Kinta City Crocs outlet. Frust!

I hate.

It's 4.45am now. The clock keep continue ticking. But I still couldn't even close my eyes. It tooks me couple hours to sleep. Ermm. I am confuse.

I don't know how to describe this feeling. I feel it again, after quite sometime I haven't felt it. The loneliness comes again. Lingering in my heart.

Today is the 8th Ramadhan. I only had one chance to berbuka puasa with my family, which was for the 1st day of fasting. Then, the 2nd day I had my breakfasting meals with LOVE. Then, started from the 3rd day of fasting until today, I had my breakfasting meal with only me. No one was there.

Myra, my new roomate always having it with her friends. I don't want to be too pathetic to ask them if I can join them. My other junior coursemate not at the same college block with me. Who else I have left? No body. No one anymore. MAK and ABAH at home. LOVE also at his hometown. Ghul is not here. Lodi is not here. Jojo was gone. Lean also. Semah also is not here. Jesnita also. Hany bany also. Markonah also. I have no one closer anymore.

For the 3rd day of fasting, which was the first day I have to face all this loneliness, I wasn't felt anything. I ate my meal happily. I finished up my Transmile Case Study while having my breakfasting meal. I didn't feel anything. Zero. I was too busy in order to complete my leftover works.

Then, came up the next day. Around 6.30 pm I was gone to the UUM's Bazaar Ramadhan. Alone again. I bought kuew teow goreng kerang, 3 pieces of karipap and orange juice. Then, when I arrived at my room, I felt empty. Another lonely breakfasting. I was cried my heart out while having my meals. I can't even hold it back.

I hate to have this feeling. I hate to be alone. I hate to feel lonely. I hate to make myself to believe that no one is here with me anymore. I hate all these.

Kak Ngah!!

Non-stop eating..!!

Today I would like to write about my second elder sister. KAK NGAH..!!

She insisted me to write something about her in my blog. Actually she just noticed that I have my own blog when she started to involve into this mutual life. Haha. Before this she didn't really care about internet. She didn't really get herself to keep updated with the global connection through internet. But now, no longer exist such lady.

What should I tell about her? Hmmm.. Let's begin with who actually she is. She is my second elders sister after ALONG (my elder sister). She is marrying to a man named Suhaimi, who I normally called ABANG NGAH. Opps!! Now I addressed him as ABANG "SUL". Haha. Only my family knows what does "SUL" means. Jahat I. Okay. They both were gifted by God with one and only daughter. Their daughter is AYA, who is now pursuing her Diploma in Masterskills College.

KAK NGAH was a teacher before. But now she switched to another field of work.

She is a very beautiful lady very fair skin. She have a dark-choc-hazel eyes color. Menyampah!! I always says that she is very lucky to have all that as a woman. No wonder she still looks pretty even though her body figure changed. Ohhoo..I'm not saying she is fat. Eh!! FAT!! What is that?? Sorry Kak Ngah!!!

One thing very funny about her. Whenever she laugh to death, or she shy about something, her face skin will turn to red color. I was told by my Chinese girlfriend, within Chinese society, anyone who have a red in color skin is the one who likes and eat a lot pig. By knowing that, we always tease her with the fact. Poor her. Hahahaha!!!

What else about her? Hmmm.. Aha!! She likes to goyang-goyang her legs. We called that as menjahit. She can't even stop herself from doing that habit. I think a lot of people out there also have this kind of habit. But I am not doing that. Sometime maybe. Only when I am in crucial thinking situations.

Kak Ngah is a isteri mithali to his husband. She is a loyal wife. She is also a good mother to AYA. Just imagine, in my whole life I never had experience to see her scolding her daughter. She is very patient even though she had faced a lot of hard and difficult situations in her life. For her, whatever comes is a challenge from God. All she need to do is be patient.

I think that is enough for now. I've got something to do. A bundle of assignments are waiting for me. Stop right now!!

p/s: Laparnya.

Ramadhan bulan mulia.

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak.
Selamat menjalani ibadah puasa diucapkan kepada
semua Muslimin dan Muslimah di seluruh dunia.

Tagging Game

It's been a while since my last entry. As usual, I was too occupied with my assignments. Seem don't really have time to update. I just ignore my poor blog, facebook, friendster, emails and so on. Opps!! Not only that. Actually I am not really into the mood of blogging.

I woke up real early today. 6.30 am. Good job!!

Okay. Let's straight forward to the main course. I did some blog walking just now. Make myself keep updated with my friends' blog. I take this game from Hana' Fedora Journal. I think it is quite interesting game to do. This is sort of tagging games. She tagged anyone who read it. So, let's start!

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. Tag 15 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?

Stranger (Hillary Duff)

Hahaha..Poor that "someone".

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRl?

I'll Be Your Love (Nicole Schezinger)

Opps!! Not to everyone please. So far I'd only said this to LOVE. The one who I really like the most.

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?

I'm Grown (Tiffany Evans ft. Bow Wow)

Yes. Agree. To show everyone that I am really grown up.

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?

Aint No Other Man (Christina Aguilera)

Huiyoo! See! I am a loyal lover.

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?

Pieces Of Me (Ashlee Simpson)

Hehe. Cool. Well, at least I will stay forever in their mind.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?

My Baby You (Marc Anthony)

I love MAK and ABAH!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?

Intuition (Jewel)

Harus!!

WHAT IS 2+2?

The Remedy (Jason Mraz)

What does this means? Hmm..

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?

Hey Ya (Outkast)

I think I should keep in touch with them, more often. Arghh!! I am a bad friend.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

No One (Alicia Keys)

Woww!! WinAmp is really my best friend. It can listen to my heart. Hehe..

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

Sexuality (Beyonce)

Haha..Do I? Naaaahhh!!

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?

Beautiful Girl (Sean Kingston)

Serious!! I am not lying. This song came up when I press the next button!!

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

Mama (Spice Girls)

Hmm..Do I think about his/her mom whenever I see them? I don't think so.

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU

Last Night (P. Diddy ft. Keyshia Cole)

They might thinking about what time did I off to bed last night.

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?

What's Your Flava? (Craig David)

Haha..I can't dance!!

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?

Look At Me (Geri Halliwel)

Will anyone dare to do this by that time? Haha!!

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?

Is It Any Wonder? (Keane)

Hehe..I don't have idea what is my real hobby actually. Silly me.

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?

The Real Slim Shady (Eminem)

Hehe..Slim? Iskh! Tension I.

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?

When I Think Of You (Lee Ryan)

I will turn crazier than ever. Euuuwww!!!

HOW WILL YOU DIE?

Bring Me To Life (Evanesence)

I wish my life will be forever. Can I?

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?

The Sharpest Lives (MCR)

Hmm..

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?

Pocketful Of Sunshine (Natasha Bedingfield)

No comment.

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?

Save Me (Remy Zero)

I love it. It show there is someone who always love me.

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?

I Don't Care (Ricky Martin)

Am I? I don't really care about it now. Later maybe. When the right time arrive.

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?

Boys And Girls (Good Charlotte)

Nope.. Let them be.

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?

Take My Breath Away (Berlin)

Hehe..Cute answer. :P

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?

Fix You (Coldplay)

Awesome!

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?

What I've Done? (Linkin Park)

What is it actually?

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

The Sweet Escape (Gwen Stefani ft. Akon)

Hahahaha!!! I love this game!

I would like to tag this to everyone who read this. Try it. Do it now. This is wonderful game!! Promise!

Sudoku Alphabets

I am now surfing from one of small cyber cafe situated behind LOVE's office. It is somewhere in Sungai Petani, Kedah actually.

I have nothing to do now. So bored even though a lot of assignments are waiting to be done by next week. Hehe. I went to LOVE's office today. I just doing nothing beside having little chat with his staffs. After that I just stayed at LOVE's office room. Doing some SUDOKU.

Actually I just learned how to play Sudoku Abjad (Sudoku Alphabets). It was introduced by LOVE. I found this Sudoku Alphabets somewhere is LOVE's luggage. I never have any idea that there are other version of Sudoku, which is using alphabets. Before this I only knew about normal Sudoku, which is using numbers.

During our lunch time, he taught me how to play it. Just imagine, for the first time of playing it, I took almost half an hour to finish one Sudoku Alphabets game. LOVE already finished up his lunch but my first Sudoku game was not. Haha. How slow I am..Hehe..It is normal right, for the first time learner like me. 30 minutes is quiet fast I think. Perasan.

Then, I did my second Sudoku Abjad game. Guess how long did I take to finish it? Haha.. I done the second game for only 15 minutes. Ehem..Ehemmm.. I was sooo impressed by my performance. Hehe.

I was really enjoyed playing it. I did my third, fourth, fifth and many more games in LOVE's office room. Now, my bestest record is 9 minutes. Arghh..I want to do it again after finish this entry. I wanna beat LOVE's record, 6 minutes. Eleh..Only 3 minutes different from mine. Tak herannn... I will do my best. I wish I can manage 3 minutes record. Can I? I can do it!!!

P.S. To LOVE, don't show off ek. 6 minutes konon..Nyampah..

The only LOVE in my life.

I feel no longer lonely to live in here, despite I have no more best friends studying in here. I mean in UUM. Dayah, Yanie, Jojo, Lean, Semah, Markonah, Jesnita, Hany Bany, Ibu and many more friends are now on their way to succeed in their own chosen carrier? Definitely leaving me behind.

For the past few weeks, which fell at the very beginning of this semester, I felt so lonely. I looked all around me, they were all gone.

Frankly says, I am really down whenever I'd heard or even read their blogs. To know they are all now already made one more steps in their life, which is moving into the world of carrier. But, above all, I feel so happy for them.

Enough. That is not really my main purpose to write this entry.

For the fact that LOVE is always around here, to join all the expos or event hosted by UUM, I feel no more lonely. I have him around me. What else will I asked for? Haha!!

I love to write about LOVE. Scrolling at my latest entries, I realize that there are limited entries about LOVE. No wonder why he always complaining to me. Some sort like,

LOVE: B, I visit your blog just now. Lame tak tengok. Busy sangat.
Me: Yer? Hehe.. I wrote about pimples!!
LOVE: Takde pon entry pasal I.
Me: Yer ker? Eh..Ader lar sayang...(Pujuk baiiikkk...)
LOVE: Mana ada. I telah dipinggirkan. Hukhuk!
Me: Alamak!!

To LOVE, here I write about you dear. No forcing. I rather do this with my full heart.

I don't know how lucky I am to have LOVE in my life. He has been so good to me. Maybe it's not too much if I say, he has been great to me. He will always be the one who will "mengalah" whenever the crucial times arrieved. I know it is not easy for a very-hot-tempered guy like him to be surrended first, and then begging me for forgiveness eventhough most of the times it was me, who actually started the fights. Hehe. Baik kan I.

Actually before I met with his family, and become so much closer like we are nowadays, I don't really know that LOVE had that kind of very-hot-tempered behaviour. Okay yes, my cousin, who is actually LOVE's ex-classmate in secondary school had told me several stories or situations to show me that LOVE have that behaviour. But, as I said, I didn't really realized it.

Untill the day of meeting with his family. Officially met. It was back to 3 to 4 years back. I had so much chat with his mom, sisters, brothers and even with his nephews and nieces. For the very first time met with them, the little sister of him, Piqah, asked me this question.

Piqah: Kak Azie, camner ek Kak Azie boleh couple dengan Andak (LOVE)? Yer lar, kitorang semua agak kagum lar dengan Kak Azie.
Me: Eh, kenapa lak Piqah tanya camtu?
Piqah: Yer lar, Andak tu kan lain sikit. Andak tu pelik tau. Kalau dia dok rumah ni, senyap jer dia. Kitorang adik-adik semua takut dengan dia. Garang tau.
Me: Yer ker? Iskh..takde lar piqah. Andak tu baik lar. Tak pernah pon garang dengan akak.
Piqah: Andak tak garang? Merepek lar Kak Azie nie. Nak tau tak, Abang Chik (LOVE lil bro) tu takut giler dengan Andak. Ateh (LOVE lil sis also) pon tak berani sangat cakap dengan Andak. Piqah nie pon boleh kira berapa kali borak dengan Andak.
Me: Yer ker? Akak tak pernah sedar pon Andak tue garang..

After having little conversation with Piqah, I asked about that to his mom. Guess what? His mom said all of that is true. Haha!! Funny. How I didn't realized all of that before? Bad girlfriend huh?

Okay, let's move on.

As some of my friends know, I am a very "cengeng" girl. I have a really sensitive heart. I can simply turn into tears and cry and cry, just like a baby. I hate to watch sad movies. I can't hold back my feeling. I will cry eventhough there are so many people around me. My ADIK always laugh seeing me crying whenever we watch drama on TV. I will even cry when I see other people crying in front of me. Serious! Sensitive terlampau!!

Having said that, throughout my relationship with LOVE, it is for sure I'd cried a lot. I will cry eventhough for a simple tiny little thingy. LOVE always said that he is a bad boyfriend. He felt bad whenever he saw me crying. He might even think that he hasn't give enough to make me always smiling. But now, as time flies, and we are in 11th years of being together, seeing me crying is been a very normal thing to him. He will cuddle me, calming me down, giving me a warm hugs, kiss my cheeks, swipe my tears off, make me laugh and that's it! Then I okay lar! He is never fails doing all that to me. He loves me that much, rite?

Sometime I even think, the weakest part of LOVE is seeing me crying. I can assure that because whenever we had a fight, when actually I was the one who started it, and he gets really angry with me, then he raise his voice to me (just a little slightly higher I will say), and then confirm lar I cry at the moment his voice rising. Whenever the first tears drop, he will feel guilty. All the angers before will immediately gone. Dissappered into the thin air. Haha!! Then he will pujuk me again. Lucky me!

LOVE also has a very warm and comfortable body, despite he is very kedings. I love it whenever I feel tired or sleepy. Because I just love it when he put his arms around me, let his chest to be my pillow, playing with my hairs until I sleep. Soooo comfortable. I love it!! All this sort of situations will happened when he asked me to accompany him to watch movies, the boring one, which really not the type of movies I like the most. I will simply fall asleep for the first 15 minutes the movie just started. Membazir tiket jer.

What else ek? Actually I have so much other things I love to write in here. But too sleepy. It is 4.54 am now. And I don't even sleep. So, I think I will stop here. I will write more, maybe next time.

Till next entry!!

Nite all!!!

PS. I love you.

PPS. The above picture was taken during our lunch time. He is playing his PSP, and I just snapping here and there while waiting for the foods. That time I kidnapped him from his busyness. Hehe. I was really hungry. So what?