Late Nite Post.

Hye all. Selamat Hari Raya. LOL.

I just woke up. It is 12.10 a.m. Believe it or not. Actually I slept at 8.00 p.m. due to migraine. I took a painkiller pills then zzzz.

LOVE called then I answered the phone, have a little chat, laugh a bit and that's it. Terus segar bugar mata I nie. I memang cenggini. I can hear the phone ringing even in my sleep. That's why if I wish to have a good night sleep, I will put my phone into silent mode and leave it on the floor so that I can't hear the vibration sound if I put it on the table. Yes all. I can also hear the vibrating sound. Weirdo.

Okay, what else I wanna tell in here? Hmmm..

Yes. I started my diet plan again. For the how many times I don't know. Seems like I have to dieting forever but I can't manage to get back my old body figure. Sometimes I loose some kg's, then I start eating like hell again, then I put only double-up the loosen kg's. Haha.

As I started it this week, after I got back from hometown for the medical check-up thingy, I can proudly say that I have lose 1kg in less than a week. What did I ate? No special secret. I ate vegetables and some lauk for lunch. And for dinner meal, sometimes I took biscuit with tea or milo. But if I felt hungry during late night I took apple. So, that's the result.

Cakap bagus konon. Cess. I pray I can maintain this style of eating. Hopefully. Selalu I nie hangat-hangat taik kamben jer. Menci.

Okay, continue study. What? My study-for-final-exam progress? I managed to finished 4 chapters of Basic Entrepreneurship paper, yesterday. Today? No progress as I read through some articles for my Accounting Theories and Practices paper, but I can say that I only understand maybe 20% of it. Silly me. Susah laaa. Try lar baca tengok senang paham tak.

That's all for today. Bye all.

p.s. I rasa rindu Kak Farah sangat hari ni. :(
p.p.s. Another unrelated-to-the-entry-topic photo. Photo of my one of my Hello Kitty collection. I will update all of it gradually. This time is apa nama ntah. Usually people put it on the car dashboard. It will move when it receive the solar energy. Betol kot. I pon tak pasti. Weee.

Tulis entri sambil kembangkan hidung. LOL.

Hye all..
I woke up early in the morning. MAK called asking me about my fever condition. I said I'm getting okay. Last night my body temperature was really high I think, like holding hot boiled kettle. Bluffing!!! Hahaha..

Eh..serious laaa..my body temperature is okay now. I think the fever gets worse only during night time. Day time relax jer babe. Siap boleh makan kuaci lagi. Hehe.

Okay, after MAK called I couldn't manage to continue my sleep again. I can't just lay down on my bed and layankan the fever right. So, I made up my mind to get up and belek2 buku. OMG! I just have 2 more weeks to go to final exam. Adoyai! 1 habuk pon I tak prepare lagi. I got up, then terus duduk kat study table. Yes!! Dapat mood terus.

Okay! I started with study for Basic Entrepreneurship paper which the final exam for this paper will be held on November 4th. On the day before which is November 3rd, I'll sit for Issues in Management Accounting paper. So, basically I will put extra attention on accounting paper, I know best that I will abandon this teras University paper, so, better I study from now kan. Why not I finish up all my basic teras University papers then only focus on my accounting papers. Adoi. Cam keling da ayat I. Sorry lar yer. LOL.

Pening lar bace! Lantak la. Suka hati I lar nak tulis camner kan.

Okay, moral of the story I nak bagitau yang I telah berjaya menghabiskan 2 chapters untuk paper Basic Entrepreneurship tue tadi. Bangganya saya.....Ehem..Ehem..

Hmm..Busuknya. Nak mandi. Bye all!!

p.s. Doakan saya cepat sembuh. Terima Kasih.
p.p.s. I think I wanna start showing off my Hello Kitty collection. Ada la sikit. For the 1st one is Hello Kitty bowl hugger. You guys can always get this when you buy Kellogs cereal. LOVE bought this for me. Hehe. Comel kan? Masa I makan I rasa cam Hello Kitty tue tengok I jer. Suke.
p.p.p.s. Kenape lari topik? Ala. Suka hati I lar. Iskh. Okay mandi.

Older vs Newer

The old good days picture. While we were in our secondary school. Taken from Diya's facebook.

People, come. Look at the older me. LOL. Kelakar kan?
This picture also from Diya, if I'm not mistaken. She gave me while we chat on YM.
Below, are photos with the latest me. I manage to find only these 2 photos in my lappy. Taken by Kak Ayu (my sis-in-law), just before Ramadhan. Raya's photos in Adik's lappy, forgot to copy last time. Sorry.
Okay? Can you all see the different? The older me and the latest me? Haha!! From the tiny-petit-skinny type of body, became the fat-debab-tembam body.

p.s. Nak kurus semula. Tapi cam mustahil jer. Huhu.

Pissed -off.

Another story about my new semester. Really forgot to write it in here.

To be cleared that I am now in my 7th semester for Accounting course. I was extended two semesters due to my sickness. To be specify, I had an accident in year 2006. Which made me to stayed at home because my right hand can't moved.

I was attended physiotherapy sessions for almost three to four months in order to make my right hand to be functioned again.

Okay. That is really a very long..long..time ago story.

Here a few situations when I entered new class and met with new friends.

Situation 1

Me: Hye, can I sit here?
Friend_1: Yes.
Me: Saya Azie. Awak?
Friend_1: Saya .... (I don't have any permission to mention her name here).

While we had a beginning chat, student in front of us passing the attendance list to us. In UUM, we have to sign the attendance list besides punch our student card at the machine near the class front door.

I signed the attendance list. As usual, my name will be on top. The first name in the list because the list were sorted by matrix number of the students.

My batch used to have only five numbers for our matrix number. But all juniors or batches after us having six numbers for their matrix number.

Friend_1: Awak semester berape sekarang?
Me: 7.
Friend_1: 7? Tapi kenape matrix number awak start angka 7? Kan sekarang semua start 10 dah kan?
Me: Ooo..Saya memang sem 7. Saya extend 2 sem dulu. Tapi extend tak diambil kira.
Friend_1: Maksudnya batch awak semua dah abis? Dah grad?
Me: Hmmm..Yer. Saya tinggal sorang jer. Semua dah habis.

Then, I kept silent. Tension.


Situation 2

I met my old friend somewhere in Faculty of Accountancy. I was walking to the class.

Friend_2: Eh! Azie!
Me: Eh! Haiiii...Lame tak jumpa...
Friend_2: Azie tak habis lagi ker? Ingatkan Azie practicum sekarang. Batch Azie kan da habis kan?
Me: Tak lar. Azie kan extend 2 sem. Nie final sem lar nie.
Friend_2: Ooo..Sabar yer Azie.
Me: Yer..Sabar...

Situation 3:

I don't like people to addressed me as "KAKAK".

Friend_3: Hai. Saye....
Me: Hai. Saya Azie.
Friend_3: Kak Azie sem berapa sekarang?
Me: 7. And jangan panggil saya Kakak. Just Azie.
Friend_3: Ala..Tak biasa lar kak. Kak Azie kan senior.
Me: Whatever...

Situation 4:

Friend_4: Hai. Awak sem berapa?
Me: 7.
Friend_4: Eh. Awak baru first time ker amik paper nie?
Me: Of course.
Friend_4: Ingatkan awak repeat paper nie.
Me: Excuse me. Saya tak pernah ada sejarah repeat paper yer.
Friend_4: Tak lar. Nie kan paper sem bawah.
Me: Oo..Saya memang plan nak amek paper nie final sem.

Argh!! Tensionnya jadi SUPER DUPER SENIOR!!!

I am left alone in here.

It's been a while since my last entry. I just realized it a few moment ago. I was too occupied with my new semester. A lot of things to be done.

Now, I am in the middle of the crowd. I sit alone by myself at the center of Pusat Kegiatan Pelajar, UUM. I have nothing to do. I feel really bored. Waiting at LOVE's booth making me much more bored. Opps, forget to mention that LOVE is here. Yes, here. In UUM. He joins the Expo Keusahawanan organised by UUM management.

LOVE is currently in books selling's business. Religious books to be specify. Sooo...I am really not comfortable sitting at his booth. I don't do wearing scarf. My hair is blonde colored. I wear tight shirt and skinny jeans. Perhaps, I don't really feel comfortable to sit there and the customers will keep staring at me like I am an alien. Lost alien.

So, I grabbed LOVE's lappy then I came here. Haha. Peace!

Okay, what can I tell in here? I am figuring out while typing. Yes, I am still figuring out. No idea comes to my mind rite now. Effing word!!

Yes. Okay! I have an idea. Let's talk about my new semester and my new or very new friends. For all my readers, I am now in UUM. Still studying. It's my very final semester in UUM. (I hope no more semesters in this jungle) As being known by most of you, I was extended two semesters due to my sickness.

Now, my batch and all my friends were gone. They all already finishing their studies in here. In fact they had finished their internship by last month of June. How sad I was when they said they were all free now. I feel really sad knowing that I am the only one left.

I keep on saying to myself, don't give up. Only four months left . I can wait for last four and half year, and I am succeed. So, these four months should be nothing to me. Yes. I am strong!!

Okay. That's all for now. I want to continue my job. I am actually searching for journals about Strategic Management's assignment.

Bye all. Till next entry ya!!

The quick post.

I have not been in a good condition these few days. And my brain seems stopped functioning. I just cannot think any topic to be talk in here.

To be inform that we, my former batch back to SMKGR's years will be having our "Slumber BBQ Party" at Sasha's place. This coming Friday.

A few internal conflicts arose but we managed to settle everything. No worries. No tears. No fights. No tensions. No depressions.

I just cannot wait for it. But, a lot of preparations must be done before the party. Huhu.

PS. I'm afraid if some friends will get heart attack by seeing my "new" fatty body. Haha.

PPS. What else can I sponsor? Spaghetti confirm. Else? Hmm..

Loneliness? Depression? Stressful? Dissapointed? I am OKAY..!!!

Everyone in this huge world will experience the feeling of loneliness. In fact everyone will struggling to avoid that feeling.

Loneliness is always be a very hurtful feeling. Sometime I will never can manage to avoid the feeling of being lonely. Even though laughter is everywhere. Even though I was surrounded with the most wonderful people in the world. Somehow, the feeling of loneliness will keep coming to me.

It really hurts to be lonely. It always be the greatest need to be in loving relationship. I will feel very lonely when I don't feel the connection between me and the person I love and care about.

At the end of the day I will feel so stressed. I will feel so depressed. The feeling of depression will come to be friend with the feeling with loneliness.As usual, people who are lonely are usually depressed.

Whenever I feel lonely, I will definitely will feel like crying. Sometimes I wish someone could hold me. Give me the most warmth hug in the world. Sometime I feel like screaming so loud. With hope that the feeling of loneliness will go away from me. And with the hope that the desire of being held and admired by someone will vanish. Sometime I will like to spend the entire day in the empty room. Just me.

I will never give up to pray to the Divine that He will grant me a strength to face all this hurtful feelings. And maybe He will generously give me some courage to tell myself that I must get used with that feeling of loneliness. Freak! I don't want to get used to it. But the pain of being alone, is very difficult for me to bare.

P/S: It is really sad and pathetic when you are actually hoping someone to give you a ring but he never do that. The more you are hoping, the more you get disappointed. So, give up hoping. Just let it be. Live your life.

P/P/S: My dear bloggers, please be noted that I am not sad. I am just disappointing.

P/P/P/S: I still know how to smile. Hehe.

Coins

These 2 weeks just made me tired. Really tired I guess. Exhausted? Yes, that's the word.

I had not enough rest. I slept less than 5 hours per day. My body seems can't take it anymore. As a result, now I had a fever. Very bad one. I can't really get up from bed. Just lying down. I think back massage will be the best idea. My back is so aching.

Opps!! I didn't come to the main point of writing this post. Okay.

I just don't have a job to do in the room. I took all my coins in the red box. Counting all of it. Actually my main purpose is to search for coins which had been produced in year 1983 (LOVE's birth year) and 1986 (my birth year).

I keep all my coins in this red box.

I have RM100++ of coins. And guess what? I don't get any coin of 1986!! For 1983, I only got 2 pieces of 10cent coins. I told LOVE about that. And guess what LOVE replied? He didn't find the 1986's too. Adoyai!!

I'm confusing rite now. No coins never been produced in 1986?? Hmmm...

An unintended post..

Good day all. I am actually have zero idea in my mind right now. I just have nothing to be talk and share today. I had been in a hectic weeks. I slept only for three to five hours a day. I am totally exhausted. But still I cannot fall asleep. Just yet.

I am figuring out, what am I gonna do? It is a hell bored staying alone at late night. I just have nothing to do. All I can do is blogging. Surfing for some interesting websites. Watching television? Not interested anymore. Astro just repeat the same programs. I am just too sick of it.

Now, I think I wanna talk about the intended purpose of blogs.

I don't remember when did I start to think that I should have one blog of mine which will be totally manage by me. A very long time ago, I already created one blog. Just for the start. But, that time I have no idea at all of what should I write on my blog. Then, on February 14th this year, I created this blog which turned to be my official blog.

At the beginning stage of blogging, I have no follower at all. But, Dya, my ex-schoolmate, gave me an endless supports to blog. She never forget to keep commenting each of my entry post. I have to admit that she really did inspired me in blogging. Thanks a lot Sayang!!

The main purpose for me in blogging is to improve my English writing skills. I realized that I am very weak in English. In fact I made a lot of grammatical errors in all my previous entries. But I just keep bear in mind, no one will ever judge me on my writing. Well, this is my own blog after all. Freak! This is not an English class.

At first, I just wrote about myself. What did I do everyday? What was happened to me that particular day? I can say that at first blogging for me was just like writing a journal or diary that I made it to be available to the public. It was just the stories of one side of me that I have decided to share with anyone who might be interested to read it.

Sometimes I feel that I blog because to voice my heart out. Which actually I have no one to share what I feel with. I have guts feeling that someone out there would be listening somehow. Sometimes, I just cannot talk to anyone about my feelings for some good reason. So, I just hold it back. But, thankful to the Divine, after I started my blog, I feel much more relief knowing that I have one better medium for me to voice out my feelings. Happiness, sadness, stress, depression or any other feelings.

Recently, I wrote a few entries which actually do not directly implied myself or people surrounded. Okay. Fine. Yes, maybe it is about 30% of it reflects what was actually happened to me. But the other 70%, it is just what I've been thinking of. For that, I've got quite some responses from my readers. They kept asking me if I am in deep critical problem and they even offering me some advices. I do really appreciate those responses.

Yes people, I was in very deep down stress these few weeks. But as I went throughout all that,I just want to throw some opinion of mine. I mean I do interested in talking about love and life. As for this reason, I think I would like to start writing about those two topics. And if I am lucky enough, maybe I can get more responses from all the readers. Then only I will feel that I am blessed enough.

OMG!! I am talking crap. Arghh!! Azie!! Tido!!

P/S: Dya, tomorrow I'll go to visit Nyet. Don't worry. Any update I will definitely texting you. Love you!

Loneliness

I just feel lonely. Really lonely.
I am all alone by myself right now.

Even though everyone is around.
Making jokes that never gonna stop.
Laughter is everywhere.
Love is in the air.

But sometimes I can feel there is a huge hole in my heart.
I can feel that I was thrown far away from this whole world.
I can feel the loneliness lingers in my heart.

Sometimes I keep thinking again and again.
Am I being appreciated?
Am I being needed?
Am I being loved?

I really wish that I could disappear into the thin air.
And then wait and see if I am being missed.
Am I?
Is there anyone who will missed me?
By any way?

I guess the answer is no.
Never.
So...Hmmm..

Is it true that this situation exist in this world?

I am so bored. Doing nothing at home.

It is 3.09am. I am still awake. Cannot close my eyes. Just having a girl's talk with El, my girlfriend.

What else can I do? In the middle of a night. Or maybe I can say, in the very early morning. Haha.

I came across this entry, while I blogging through a few blogs. I don't have any idea who is the owner. But still I am attracted to read her entry.

In her entry, she pointed out about this question.

"Have you ever meet your soul mate after you already met someone?"



Frankly says, I am seriously never ever heard about this before. In real world. Yes, I did read through all the stories. But all of that were from a couple novels. Nothing to do with the real world. So, before this I just think that it all from fantasy. From imaginations.

Here I put the full entry from her blog.

You already met someone.Stung by love.He's all you're looking for.He takes care of you,adore you,accepting you as who you are,shared everything together and you even told your self-damn he's the ONE.And the step towards the great happy ending is not even something you'd call 'looking forward to it' anymore but its already there.Right in front of your eyes.

And suddenly there is HE is.
Another person jump into the picture and create another electricity sparks.At first you just think gosh he's hot;
"Oh I like that too~~!";
"Hey,thanks for being such a great listener";

...then after some conversations,companies and sharing thoughts;you began to wonder;you two had so much things in common-where have u been all this while?Why don't you come earlier?Hmm.....

From the fancy;you began to adore.

From calling each other buddy;he began to call you honey.

From a "just to say hi" text messages;it went to "missing you".

From saving his number as the member of 'BFF' group in your cellphone; he's now on your top list of speed dial.

From sharing hobbies and interests you guys now talking thru some love song lyrics.

There's also a vow like "If by 40years old we're both single;lets get married"
And from the sayings of "I'll definitely take leave to attend your wedding" suddenly he said "Why you dunt see me 1st?,why u have to have him?"

And that's where u got stucked.
One is surely love you unconditionally and without doubts will be a great father to your kids;
The other one is the type that you would kill to marry.Or even date.

Which way would you go?

For real babe. I don't think that there is a person who is getting stuck in between this kind of situation. If there is one, I am figuring out of how he/she gonna cope with this situation? Seriously, it is a damn situation. Where you have to kick your ass and make one best decision.

And the most important, the whatever decision he/she is going to make, must always be with the purpose to makes everyone happy. It is impossible rite? Because it is for sure that one heart will be hurt.

If you decide to choose to be with A, then B will get hurt.
If you decide to choose B as your life partner, definitely A will get hurt.
Or else you choose to leave both A and B. And you become the one who will getting hurt.

I couldn't think any further, because I've never been in that kind of situation. And of course I don't want to experience it. For real babe. Crazy!!!

Men are good at sulking?

While watching a Malay drama "Kerana Kasih" at TV3 with family, the actress said something about sulking. I didn't really followed the whole story. Me and sisters were busying gossips and laughing.

There was something about the actor who get sulk with his wife.

Now, I start to think again. Do men get sulk? Of course. It is a normal behavior for a human being like us. But still, I think that it is not really normal for men to get sulk. Well, men always try to be really macho, cool and steady. Especially in front of girls. It is a fact rite?

If I looked back into my 23rd years of life, I can agree at the statement that men do sulk. So silly.

In fact, I think men sulk a lot more than women. Maybe I can admit that men are good at sulking. I've known a quite number of men who basically go into a sulk. And the worst part is they won't talk to you for a couple days. Maybe when they feel annoyed with you. Or maybe when they can't get their own way. Or maybe when things don't go their own way.

I did googled some websites and forums just now. Especially forums about relationship and marriage life. I came across a research done by Peter Rook. He said,

Yes some men do sulk. But some women mistakenly think a man is having a sulk. This is because when a man gets upset, he never talks about what is bothering him. Instead, he becomes very quiet and goes into his private world. Ladies, this is not a sulk, It's our way of trying to find a solution.

Is it true? Or not? Hmm..Then? Whot does sulk means to a guy? After all I need to agree that guys are complicated.

People, please tell me. What is the best way to know that men especially our spouse is sulk? Or in other way, to know that we are the target of a sulk.

In my opinion, the sulker does not really want to get engage an eye contact with us. That's mean, the sulker does not want to look at us when they get sulk with us. In easy words, we are the target of a sulk. This is a very common behavior of a human being. And I will not deny that me too just like that when I sulk.

According to my experiences being in love with LOVE, that is not really easy for me to know that he is sulk. Because he is not an open and outspoken type of guy who easily can talk about how he feels. He likes to hold it back just with himself. It is too difficult for me to know what is on his mind at the moment. And I think I am getting used to it. That's why sometime I don't ask him because I know I will get the same answer. He will says, I'm so ok B.

Most of the time when I noticed that he was sulking, I will find my own way to overcome it. I think touching will do. Also make him laugh. It is a stupid action for me to think that I can just ignore the sulker and just go away.

Sometimes I think sulking might show childish behavior. But some might says, men don't sulk for no reason. Is that true?

Above all of that, I can say that sulking underminds and might hurts your partner by any way.

So, do not get sulk. Boleh? Hahahaha...

Welcome to my newly designed blog

I am now in Puchong. With the main purpose to take my lil nephew back to hometown. He insisted to spend the upcoming school holiday at Kg. I am so excited because it was almost half a year I didn't have much time to really play with him. Yes, he is my favourite nephew. I stayed with my ABANG back to 6 years ago if I am not mistaken. Somewhere in Pandan.

I have no other activity to do now. Everybody are sleeping at the moment. As usual, I cannot easily get to sleep. I was intended to change my blog template before. I just want to find something really suit myself. I love cute thingy.

Luckily, after rolled over a few free blog template websites, I finally found this cute design.

I choosed this template design because of the cute birdie image. Also the flowers all over the blog. I think it is simple yet nice design. Not really too messy to my eyes. The plain color also really make me feel much more relax whenever I open my blog.

I've been through a saddest moment when I uploaded the template and saw all my widgets gone. I managed to do all as before. Now, everything is back to normal. No worries.

It is a new, cute blog template design. And looks like it should be a very exciting one. I hope it can encourage me in writing. Yes, I admit that I have been terrible with all my previous entries. With the intention to improve my art of writing, I hope I can do way better after this.

I feel sleepy now. Time to sleep. Nite all.

CIK ZIZEE BACK ON TRACK!!

It has been ages since my last post.
Semester break just started couple weeks ago.
I spent most of my holiday at home.



Doing nothing. Too bored.
ABAH terminated the streamix.



With the reason that no one using it
since my younger sister continue her study in Masterskills.
And that is the strong reason why I didn't blogging for a while.



So, now I start to update my blog again.
What I'm gonna write today?
Hmmm...



I'll think about it later.
So sleepy.
I just got back from "Pasar Ahad" at my hometown.
Accompanied MAK.
(Mandi awal pagi I arini...hehe)



Let's continue sleeping.
I will continue writing after I get enough sleep.
Zzzz...

ANOTHER MOVIES

I finished these 3movies yesterday nite...
I watched those with Lean@Esah...

Nothing much to do at nite...
So...
We ended up with these...
And I rated it accordingly...

1. Angus, Thongs and Perfect Snogging

2. Marley and Me

3. The Pink Panther 2

Dya tagged me again...For now she wants to know about the answers to all these 30 questions:

1. Where is your cellphone - in my lecture's bag (I just got back from class...)
   
2. Your hair - medium, colored with natural blonde by Revlon, rebond and damaged hair...my natural was straight and of course black in color...:)
   
3. Your father - perhaps he is golfing right now...
   
4. Your favorite thing - shopping, shopping, shopping and finally crying (because no more money left)
   
5. Your dream last night - i didn't sleep last nite...busying memorize the script for today's presentation)
   
6. Your favorite drink - air centa (sirap bandung...hehe...)
   
7. Your dream goal - to have enough money to be travelling all around the world...just for shopping...hahaha!!! >LOL<
   
8. The room you are in - my hostel's room
   
9. Your fear - to lose my loved ones
   
10. Where do you want to be in 6 years - atas pelamin...boleh??
    
11. Muffins - chocolate and vanilla
    
12. One of your wish list items - HP mini 1000 Vivience Tam Special Edition
    
13. Where you grew up - Bikam, Ipoh, Kuala Lumpur, Selangor and of course currently Sintok
    
14. The last thing you did - Fought in the phone with LOVE...>SIGH<
    
15. What are you wearing - white sleeveless and shocking pink hot pant
    
16. Your TV - I haven't own any TV but my home TV is Panasonic (If I am not mistaken)
    
17. Your pet - never own any pet...really hates animal...but LOVE do
    
18. Your computer- previous was Hyundai M-Life...current is DELL and at home is HP :)
    
19. Your life - i can say happy...kot
    
20. Your mood - so-so
    
21. Missing someone - Yes I do...so much
    
22. Your car - Proton Wira a/b
    
23. Favorite store - SUBZERO, PADINI CONCEPT STORE, VINCCI, and many more...
    
24. Your summer - I never experienced summer since I lived in Malaysia...
    
25. Your favorite colors - pink, red, purple, yellow and ALL!!! I am colorful person...
    
26. When was the last time you laughed - During the presentation in the Company Secretary class...I "merepek" answering the questions asked by my lecturer...haha...
    
27. When was the last time you cried - takmau nanges!!!!!!!! Now, I am holding it back even though I just fought with him just now...
    
28. Last person who emailed you - Madam Ainon from Exxonmobil...Regarding my internship process... >BIG GRIN<
    
29. Your favorite food - bihun tomyam cooked by Charen
    
30. A place you would rather be right now - At my hometown...Missed my mak and abah so damn "F...ing" much...
    

I am tagging LOVE, hany bany and teha to do this tag!

MAKEOVER WITH CIK ZIZEE...

~before~

~after~
hahahahaaaa...
:)

STRESS..!!

Today I just feel really miserable...
I don't even have any idea what I want right now...
The tears are only running down through my cheeks...
Without even giving me a clue why I must feels this way...

Every single little thing I did was only dragging me
into the bad feelings...
Everything seems really hard and pushes me deep down...
I want myself to be much more relaxed...
And accept all the things
as well as going through over the flow fluency...

So many things that I have to be done
before start kick my ass to studying and preparing for the final exam...
Actually, I already promised myself that I will put a lot of effort...
In order to get higher and better result...

But as I am trying to finish every tasks...
Then another tasks will arrive...
When all these "F...word" tasks will stop...
From bothering me in my way to achieve what I want...

I want to be the same old AZIE...
Just like who I am before...
Who was very determine in whatever she's been doing...
Who was really have the strong attitude indeed...
In achieving whatever she's been dreamed off...
Who was can going through all the saddest...
And hardest things...
All by herself...
Without even throwing a word of complaining...

But now, I just realize that AZIE was gone...
The only left is the girl who is very fragile...
To everything which comes in front of her...

All she knows is crying...
Giving up...
When she feels bad...
When she feels hard...
When she feels upset...
When she feels things does not goes as what she wanted it to be...
The girl who will only complaint about others...
See people on their bad side...
Without even try to look at the good side of people...
The girl who does not have the strengthen faith on herself...

I wish I can control everything...
I wish I can be the strong AZIE as before...
I wish I go through whatever that comes over me bravely...
I wish I can be strong...
I wish I can be everything...

But...
The question is...
Can I be like that...???
Without facing any difficulties...

Of course...
I already knew the answer...

I JUST CAN'T...!!!!

WEEKEND'S ROUTINE

Here are some of the movies that I watched during this weekend...
Actually I wish i can go to cinema but...
I am a lone ranger right here...
I mean, I have no friends who share the same hobbies like mine...
ohhh...I missed my Love so much...
We both share the same hobby together...
(Sayang...Da lame kite tak g tgk wyg nie...!!!)
Forget it...Return to my borinkness story...
So, the solution is I went to the some movies stores here
and I bought all of these movies...
Oops...The Harold and Kumar
I took or maybe I can called it stole from my Honey...
During our "dates" at the beginning of the February...
Thanks sayang...!!!!
I love you darlin'...
And also, a few of it I copied from "Hidayah Kala Lodi"...
My very good friend...
Thanks Lodi..!!!
I love you...