HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOVE..!! (updated)

It is October 3rd, 2009, and it is LOVE 26th birthday..!!

12.00 a.m. - I wished him a very happy birthday. He asked me to sing him a birthday song while he ate the cupcake (the one which I ordered from Kak Rani, Bake2Decorate). I refused. Malu lar konon.

Then he sang the birthday song to himself, alone, with a pretty sad voice.

Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to me,
Happy Birthday to Sabri,
Happy Birthday to me.

I laughed my heart out. He have to sing the birthday song by himself, on his birthday.

Then I said, let me sing a song for him, but in Mandarin Languange. I learned from my Chinese friend, back to my SPM year's.

Chu ni sheng rhe quai lhe.
Chu ni sheng rhe quai lhe,
Chu ni sheng rhe quai lhe Darlin',
Chu nie sheng re quai lhe.

Okay. Okay. I don't know how to spelling it into word, but I know how to pronounce it. Good enough for me.

Back to several weeks ago, I had a plan in my mind. Something like to throw a surprise birthday party for him. But, last minute, tak menjadi because of some unexpected circumstances thingy happened. Never mind la, as long as he happy.

p.s. Later I will upload the surprise cupcakes together with a gift for him.
p.p.s. Thanks a lot to Dya and Sha for giving me an idea of buying that gift for him. He loves it!!

Pictures credit to Bake2decorate.

The only LOVE in my life.

I feel no longer lonely to live in here, despite I have no more best friends studying in here. I mean in UUM. Dayah, Yanie, Jojo, Lean, Semah, Markonah, Jesnita, Hany Bany, Ibu and many more friends are now on their way to succeed in their own chosen carrier? Definitely leaving me behind.

For the past few weeks, which fell at the very beginning of this semester, I felt so lonely. I looked all around me, they were all gone.

Frankly says, I am really down whenever I'd heard or even read their blogs. To know they are all now already made one more steps in their life, which is moving into the world of carrier. But, above all, I feel so happy for them.

Enough. That is not really my main purpose to write this entry.

For the fact that LOVE is always around here, to join all the expos or event hosted by UUM, I feel no more lonely. I have him around me. What else will I asked for? Haha!!

I love to write about LOVE. Scrolling at my latest entries, I realize that there are limited entries about LOVE. No wonder why he always complaining to me. Some sort like,

LOVE: B, I visit your blog just now. Lame tak tengok. Busy sangat.
Me: Yer? Hehe.. I wrote about pimples!!
LOVE: Takde pon entry pasal I.
Me: Yer ker? Eh..Ader lar sayang...(Pujuk baiiikkk...)
LOVE: Mana ada. I telah dipinggirkan. Hukhuk!
Me: Alamak!!

To LOVE, here I write about you dear. No forcing. I rather do this with my full heart.

I don't know how lucky I am to have LOVE in my life. He has been so good to me. Maybe it's not too much if I say, he has been great to me. He will always be the one who will "mengalah" whenever the crucial times arrieved. I know it is not easy for a very-hot-tempered guy like him to be surrended first, and then begging me for forgiveness eventhough most of the times it was me, who actually started the fights. Hehe. Baik kan I.

Actually before I met with his family, and become so much closer like we are nowadays, I don't really know that LOVE had that kind of very-hot-tempered behaviour. Okay yes, my cousin, who is actually LOVE's ex-classmate in secondary school had told me several stories or situations to show me that LOVE have that behaviour. But, as I said, I didn't really realized it.

Untill the day of meeting with his family. Officially met. It was back to 3 to 4 years back. I had so much chat with his mom, sisters, brothers and even with his nephews and nieces. For the very first time met with them, the little sister of him, Piqah, asked me this question.

Piqah: Kak Azie, camner ek Kak Azie boleh couple dengan Andak (LOVE)? Yer lar, kitorang semua agak kagum lar dengan Kak Azie.
Me: Eh, kenapa lak Piqah tanya camtu?
Piqah: Yer lar, Andak tu kan lain sikit. Andak tu pelik tau. Kalau dia dok rumah ni, senyap jer dia. Kitorang adik-adik semua takut dengan dia. Garang tau.
Me: Yer ker? Iskh..takde lar piqah. Andak tu baik lar. Tak pernah pon garang dengan akak.
Piqah: Andak tak garang? Merepek lar Kak Azie nie. Nak tau tak, Abang Chik (LOVE lil bro) tu takut giler dengan Andak. Ateh (LOVE lil sis also) pon tak berani sangat cakap dengan Andak. Piqah nie pon boleh kira berapa kali borak dengan Andak.
Me: Yer ker? Akak tak pernah sedar pon Andak tue garang..

After having little conversation with Piqah, I asked about that to his mom. Guess what? His mom said all of that is true. Haha!! Funny. How I didn't realized all of that before? Bad girlfriend huh?

Okay, let's move on.

As some of my friends know, I am a very "cengeng" girl. I have a really sensitive heart. I can simply turn into tears and cry and cry, just like a baby. I hate to watch sad movies. I can't hold back my feeling. I will cry eventhough there are so many people around me. My ADIK always laugh seeing me crying whenever we watch drama on TV. I will even cry when I see other people crying in front of me. Serious! Sensitive terlampau!!

Having said that, throughout my relationship with LOVE, it is for sure I'd cried a lot. I will cry eventhough for a simple tiny little thingy. LOVE always said that he is a bad boyfriend. He felt bad whenever he saw me crying. He might even think that he hasn't give enough to make me always smiling. But now, as time flies, and we are in 11th years of being together, seeing me crying is been a very normal thing to him. He will cuddle me, calming me down, giving me a warm hugs, kiss my cheeks, swipe my tears off, make me laugh and that's it! Then I okay lar! He is never fails doing all that to me. He loves me that much, rite?

Sometime I even think, the weakest part of LOVE is seeing me crying. I can assure that because whenever we had a fight, when actually I was the one who started it, and he gets really angry with me, then he raise his voice to me (just a little slightly higher I will say), and then confirm lar I cry at the moment his voice rising. Whenever the first tears drop, he will feel guilty. All the angers before will immediately gone. Dissappered into the thin air. Haha!! Then he will pujuk me again. Lucky me!

LOVE also has a very warm and comfortable body, despite he is very kedings. I love it whenever I feel tired or sleepy. Because I just love it when he put his arms around me, let his chest to be my pillow, playing with my hairs until I sleep. Soooo comfortable. I love it!! All this sort of situations will happened when he asked me to accompany him to watch movies, the boring one, which really not the type of movies I like the most. I will simply fall asleep for the first 15 minutes the movie just started. Membazir tiket jer.

What else ek? Actually I have so much other things I love to write in here. But too sleepy. It is 4.54 am now. And I don't even sleep. So, I think I will stop here. I will write more, maybe next time.

Till next entry!!

Nite all!!!

PS. I love you.

PPS. The above picture was taken during our lunch time. He is playing his PSP, and I just snapping here and there while waiting for the foods. That time I kidnapped him from his busyness. Hehe. I was really hungry. So what?

Attention to Dya and Dzul Nyet!!

I just came across Dya's blog. She update her blog with current post related to a love matter. It was about a girl named Katie who suffered from terminal cancer. Also her dear fiance, Nick, who always be by her side and never stop giving her full supports until Katie's last breath, which was happened on the 5th days she officially became Nick's. It was such true endless love story. The story was really touch my heart.

Having heard that Dya actually not in a good mood these few days. My dear, I know you are now in a situation where you really need to gather all your strength to face the true facts. Never mine dear, I just want to noted you that I will always here if in any case you might a good listener. Or maybe you need a shoulder to cry on. I will always be here, dear.

Now, I would like to talk about the main point for me to write this. Actually I want to dedicate this entry to two of my good old days friends. Dya and Dzul Nyet.

Actually, this love story had been in my storage for an ages. I don't really remember where did I found this. Might be from an email. It was about a love story between two best friends, Daniel and Jasmine.

Here is their love story.

Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park one night.

Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world.

Jasmine: I think so. All my friends have boyfriends and we are only the two persons left in this world without any special person in our life.

Daniel: Yes, I just don't know what to do.

Jasmine: I know!! We'll play a game.

Daniel: What game?

Jasmine: I'll be your girlfriend for 30 days and you'll be my boyfriend.

Daniel: That's a great plan. In fact I don't have nothing to do much these following weeks.

DAY 1:
They watched their first movie and they both touched in a romantic film.

DAY 4:
They went to the beach and have a picnic. Daniel and Jasmine have their quality time together.

DAY 12:
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they ride on a Horror House. Jasmine was scared and she touched Daniel's hand but actually she was touched someone else's hand. They both laughed.

DAY 15:
They saw a fortune teller down the road and they asked for their future advice and the fortune teller said, "My darling, please don't waste the time of your life. Spend the rest of your time together happily." Then tears flow out the teller's eyes.

DAY 20:
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor. Jasmine mumbled something.

DAY 28: They sat on the bus and because of a bumpy road, Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident.

DAY 29:

11.37pm -
Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where they first decided to play this game.

Daniel: I'm tired Jasmine. Do you want any drinks? I'll go and buy you one. I'll just go down the road.

Jasmine: Apple juice. That's all.

Daniel: Wait for me.

20 minutes later -
A stranger approached Jasmine.

Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?

Jasmine: Why? Yes. What happened?

Stranger: A reckless drunken driver ran over Daniel and he is critical in the hospital now.

11.57pm -
The doctor went out of the emergency room and he handed out an apple juice along with a letter to Jasmine.

Doctor: We found this letter in Daniel's pocket.

Jasmine read the letter and it says:
"Jasmine, this past few days, I realized that you are a really cute girl and I am really falling love for you. Your cherish smile, your everything when we played this game. Before this game would end, I would like you to be my real girlfriend for the rest of my life. I love you, Jasmine."

Jasmine crumpled the letter and shouted:
"Daniel!! I don't want you to die. I love you. Remember that night when we saw a meteor? I was mumbled something. I wish that we would be together forever and never end this game. Please don't leave me, Daniel. I love you! You cannot do this to me!!"

Then the clock strikes 12.

Daniel's heart stop pumping.

THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY.

Here some of my conclusions throughout reading this love story.

TO DYA.
Dear, just hang in there. Don't ever give a s**t to what was happened to you. Just accept the real facts. Somehow it may be brings a good fortune for you. Maybe someone around you is always loves you, silently. Someone that you don't even expect that he might be the one that was created by the Divine to be with you. To be your better half. Maybe it is good for you to just sit back and relax and never hoping for someone to come. Let the love comes to you. Never chasing it.

TO DZUL NYET.
Nyet, please don't hide your feelings. Give it a shot. Then she will know you are a grown man. Just be gentleman. Don't hold your feelings back to your own self. Show her how much you are dying to have her back. Show her the love, before it is too late. After all, Dya and me know best that you are still in loved with her. Be brave Nyet. Never wait until tomorrow. Who might knows that actually she has the same feelings towards you.

TO ALL OF YOU out there.
Always love your loved one. Show them how you feel for them, before it is to late. You will never know when they will gone from your embrace. Say that you loves them. Today is the day. Never wait until tomorrow. Love them while they are still here. And bear in mind, if nobody in the world to love you, then I will always be the one who will generously give my love.

Not forget TO LOVE.
I love you Sayang. It grew bigger and bigger each day. You better know that.

As FOR ME.
Love is such the greatest thing given by the Divine. Thankful that I ever have a chance to feel it. Alhamdullilah.


P/S: I love you.

He knows the best way to persuade me..

Having said that our relationship seems didn't goes very well recently. A lot of fights. A lot of tears.

He tried his best to come down here and meet me. With the main purpose to solve all the problems between both of us.

He did called me around 11am and begging me to go out with him. Well, I agree. I bear in mind, sometimes we need to confront the reality. Confront the problems. No need to be hide. Phone calls and messages sometimes cannot be the best medium. Face to face will always be the best one, I think.

After dressing up, I went out. Met him.

To be frank, the first half an hour I just kept silent and didn't even looked at his face. I just stood there like a stone. Until, he went into tears seeing me that way. He said I am not in love with him anymore. That's what makes him more frightened.

After a long paused, he brought up something from his bag. Tadaaa... Sorry, I am wearing the necklace right now. Just the picture of the box.


He said, he did planned to give it to me on my birthday. But something came up and he can't make it on that day. I just accept. Of course with a big smiles on my face. Haha.

Then we went to Kinta City Jaya Jusco. Having a lunch at Johnny's.


Then, another surprise came up. He straight away entered Guess outlet, picked a handbag and paid at cashier. I just don't have any idea about that. But, as what elders said, "rezeki jangan ditolak dan musuh jangan dicari". It's been a while since I bought my last handbag. So, this is just nice. Well, here it is. Opps, I did it again. Forgot to take picture of the handbag. Sorry.


Now, what more can I say about the meeting? He already knows the very best way to persuading me. Whenever I get sulk, we fight, then at last he buy something for me. Mak said, "Selalu lar merajuk, nanti dapat barang baru lagi".

Yes, I have to admit this. Shopping is always be the best therapy for my stress and deppressions.

P/S: Sleepy head in here. Sorry a lot for the school's girl writing again. I am just too tired.

P/S/S: I just realized that I wear the same shirt like the one I already wore at Sasha's birthday. Sorry. Silly me.

Love, fate and destiny.

Just having heart to heart talks with my best friend. Now, I just cannot get to sleep. Keep thinking. What is actually the meaning of love fate destiny?

I mean like, yes now I am in the middle of love. But still I have no clue if this is my love destiny or not. Skeptical thinking rite?

I did some Googled just now. And this what I found through my chroming.

LOVE: That tumbling, mysterious force that hits you in the face and leaves you in a dark pit of confusion. That feeling that leaves you dazed and light-headed. That feeling that makes you feel everything is right in the world. That feeling that comes with those three little over used words: I LOVE YOU

FATE: You can't run from it. You can't hide from it. What you do, whoever you meet, that's fate. It's a cruel and stern master; deciding everything without your consent. That first chance meeting between two lovers, that’s fate. That shock you find within after you find out you're working together, that’s fate too.

DESTINY: You have to grab it. You can't wait for it to come to you. You decide for yourself what destiny you have. Once you have it, you have to pursue it. You can't stay in one place, waiting for the expected changes to kick in. You have to run after it, fight for it with every inch of your being.

As I go through a love in the real life, I should admit that I have my own opinion towards the meaning of all these bounding words.

LOVE for me sometimes can be good and sometimes can be bad though. When love is in the air, you can feel like fondling. You will feel like the entire world is yours. You will feel like everything turn to be very colorful. All the beautiful lovely flowers seems smiling at you. The wind seems very friendly to touch your skin and blow your hair. You will even feel like living in heaven. Unfortunately, when there is no more love is around, you will feel like the entire world is laughing at you. Looking down at you. You will feel like dying. You will feel the sorrowfulness. You might even think that it is the end of the world.

As for FATE. It is truly something that we couldn't afford to avoid. It decide everything for you. No mercy. Sometimes you might feel like there is no sympathy in fate. You have to accept whatever it is, even though you are not really welcome it. For some lucky times, you will find that fate is actually coming to be friend with you. To bring a little bit of happiness to your life. In order to spice up your life. But we have to always make ourselves to believe that any fate that being given by God, is actually bring along the good purpose behind it. Fate will never harm us.

Last but not least, DESTINY. I can say that it is actually predetermined by God. It is a predetermined course of events. You may choose your own destiny by choosing different paths of your life. You can make it as your best destiny, or even at the contra side. When you choose to follow whatever your destiny will be, everything will also tend to go right in your life. There are some events that are to happen and not to be changeable.

Some people might says, love destiny bring means that two hearts will be drawn and brought together in a love that will never end. Whatever is coming in between, these two hearts will definitely be together forever. These two hearts will never can be separated from each other. If it is ever happen to them, some miracle will always bring them back together again. To live together. To live their life together. Seems that there is a strong binds that already bound them.

And now, to be frank, these three strong bounded words keep hitting me with so many questions.

I have read this quote somewhere, back to a couple years ago.

"True love will never have a happy ending. Because true love will never ends."

Is it true? If it does, then why true love is exist in this world? If it cannot bring us to a happy ending?

After all, we have to admit this. Even though we are loved to be in love, somehow we have to accept the pains that comes along with it.

We are actually taking a risk whenever we open our hearts to allow love to enter it. Because the truth is, if we ever open it for love, we are also expose it to full of pain. We can never be able to open our heart for love and at the same time do not experience some hurt.

TRUE LOVE IS SUICIDE!!

Is it true that this situation exist in this world?

I am so bored. Doing nothing at home.

It is 3.09am. I am still awake. Cannot close my eyes. Just having a girl's talk with El, my girlfriend.

What else can I do? In the middle of a night. Or maybe I can say, in the very early morning. Haha.

I came across this entry, while I blogging through a few blogs. I don't have any idea who is the owner. But still I am attracted to read her entry.

In her entry, she pointed out about this question.

"Have you ever meet your soul mate after you already met someone?"



Frankly says, I am seriously never ever heard about this before. In real world. Yes, I did read through all the stories. But all of that were from a couple novels. Nothing to do with the real world. So, before this I just think that it all from fantasy. From imaginations.

Here I put the full entry from her blog.

You already met someone.Stung by love.He's all you're looking for.He takes care of you,adore you,accepting you as who you are,shared everything together and you even told your self-damn he's the ONE.And the step towards the great happy ending is not even something you'd call 'looking forward to it' anymore but its already there.Right in front of your eyes.

And suddenly there is HE is.
Another person jump into the picture and create another electricity sparks.At first you just think gosh he's hot;
"Oh I like that too~~!";
"Hey,thanks for being such a great listener";

...then after some conversations,companies and sharing thoughts;you began to wonder;you two had so much things in common-where have u been all this while?Why don't you come earlier?Hmm.....

From the fancy;you began to adore.

From calling each other buddy;he began to call you honey.

From a "just to say hi" text messages;it went to "missing you".

From saving his number as the member of 'BFF' group in your cellphone; he's now on your top list of speed dial.

From sharing hobbies and interests you guys now talking thru some love song lyrics.

There's also a vow like "If by 40years old we're both single;lets get married"
And from the sayings of "I'll definitely take leave to attend your wedding" suddenly he said "Why you dunt see me 1st?,why u have to have him?"

And that's where u got stucked.
One is surely love you unconditionally and without doubts will be a great father to your kids;
The other one is the type that you would kill to marry.Or even date.

Which way would you go?

For real babe. I don't think that there is a person who is getting stuck in between this kind of situation. If there is one, I am figuring out of how he/she gonna cope with this situation? Seriously, it is a damn situation. Where you have to kick your ass and make one best decision.

And the most important, the whatever decision he/she is going to make, must always be with the purpose to makes everyone happy. It is impossible rite? Because it is for sure that one heart will be hurt.

If you decide to choose to be with A, then B will get hurt.
If you decide to choose B as your life partner, definitely A will get hurt.
Or else you choose to leave both A and B. And you become the one who will getting hurt.

I couldn't think any further, because I've never been in that kind of situation. And of course I don't want to experience it. For real babe. Crazy!!!

Saya sayang kamu semua!!!

A-tong, Dya and Achik.


Si Gemoks and Dee.
It is a bit blurry picture. But I like it.
Sorry Dee. Hehe..


We were having so much fun together!!!
I love you girls!!!
So much!!!

LOVE AND LOST

I don't have any strong reason why I make this post.
Maybe because of my last nite dream.

It was my very first time going to Sunway Lagoon.
Pity me. My family especially my ABAH are not going-out-having-fun type of person.
My MAK is in the contra side. She loves to go out ang having so fun with us .
But now I am gonna talk about me and LOVE went to Sunway Lagoon. Yes LOVE. This is very back-dated post .

Frankly said it was our very first time going to Sunway Lagoon .
And I can say that we had so much fun together .
We paid for water park and amusement park only since it was already late when we reached out there.




We tried on almost all the games.
In fact, I won the "sliding" games (I can't remember the games name ) three times.
Even though LOVE was cheating.
But still I am the winner.

Despite having fun which will be the lovely cherished moments of us,
there is also a sadness thing happened that day.
I lost my lovely pink "Exilim EX-Z80 Casio" digital camera.

Owh..No...No...
Not lost but we dropped it in the water.
Well, yes.
It is not a water-proof camera.
As we know, only Olympus produced the water-proof digital camera, so far.

We took it immadiately to some photo store at Sunway Pyramid.
I felt like crying when I heard the Chinese guy at the store said that it just a waste if we send it for repair .
He suggest us to buy a new one instead.

LOVE a bit down since he thought that it was his fault to dropped it in the water.
I don't blame him after all. I just keep bear in mind that it is not my "rezeki".
Maybe next time "jumpe duit terpijak". Then only I can buy a new one .


Here I put some photos of LOVE, my unpaid model.
Sorry, I didn't take many photos of mine since I feel a bit ashamed when I look at my "buroks+gemoks" body in the picture.



Yes all. He did the sprayed tattoo at Sunway Lagoon.